Friday, July 20, 2007
I'm unsure where to begin. The outpouring of love and support from everyone has been very touching and means so much to us. I hurt like I have never hurt before. My bright, shining light has been extinguished and I'm not sure the world will ever have the glow it once had. I'm just, I'm just, I don't know.
Hannah had a beautiful day yesterday. She came in and snuggled with me first thing in the morning. We snuggled for about 2o minutes and moved on downstairs for breakfast. I made her a jelly bun for breakfast and then, it was time to put on swimsuits. Hannah adored her beautiful new bathing suit. It was striped and had a shiny Fancy Hannah silver stripes. Hannah, being Hannah had run outside to keep herself busy while I tried to get everything in order in the house. Within moments she was racing to the door, "Mommy, do you want to see something VERY beautiful??" I ran with Hannah down the path to see the water lily that had bloomed in our little fountain. It was indeed beautiful.
But, for Hannah the best part of the day was getting to the beach and getting in the water. She LOVED that more than anything. She played on the shore in the sand and she played in the water. She was playing that go under/come up game and she went down one time and just didn't come back up.
My mental vision is of Hannah running up a tunnel towards Papa's outstretched arms. I know he was always sad because he couldn't hold his grandbabies in his arms. Now, they're up there having a grand old time and I'm sure Hannah already has him wrapped around her little finger. She is just glowing in a Fancy Hannah gown with two beautiful feathered wings and boy, what a crown! My sweet sweet angel!
Hannah, my sweet sweet little Angel Monkey, this is your water lily this morning.
OH GOD I HURT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!