Friday, July 20, 2007

Angel Girl





I'm unsure where to begin. The outpouring of love and support from everyone has been very touching and means so much to us. I hurt like I have never hurt before. My bright, shining light has been extinguished and I'm not sure the world will ever have the glow it once had. I'm just, I'm just, I don't know.

Hannah had a beautiful day yesterday. She came in and snuggled with me first thing in the morning. We snuggled for about 2o minutes and moved on downstairs for breakfast. I made her a jelly bun for breakfast and then, it was time to put on swimsuits. Hannah adored her beautiful new bathing suit. It was striped and had a shiny Fancy Hannah silver stripes. Hannah, being Hannah had run outside to keep herself busy while I tried to get everything in order in the house. Within moments she was racing to the door, "Mommy, do you want to see something VERY beautiful??" I ran with Hannah down the path to see the water lily that had bloomed in our little fountain. It was indeed beautiful.



But, for Hannah the best part of the day was getting to the beach and getting in the water. She LOVED that more than anything. She played on the shore in the sand and she played in the water. She was playing that go under/come up game and she went down one time and just didn't come back up.

My mental vision is of Hannah running up a tunnel towards Papa's outstretched arms. I know he was always sad because he couldn't hold his grandbabies in his arms. Now, they're up there having a grand old time and I'm sure Hannah already has him wrapped around her little finger. She is just glowing in a Fancy Hannah gown with two beautiful feathered wings and boy, what a crown! My sweet sweet angel!


Hannah, my sweet sweet little Angel Monkey, this is your water lily this morning.

OH GOD I HURT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

88 comments:

Tiburon said...

Rach

I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face. I am so so sorry. I wish there were words to express the sorrow that I feel for you and your family.

I have prayed so many times for Heavenly Father to give you some comfort and peace.

I wish there was something that I could say - but honestly there just aren't words.

I am thinking of you and praying for you and I know that Hannah is an angel and will watch over you always.

Please let me know if you need anything.

Tib

Anonymous said...

People that you don't even know are praying for you.

I pray that you can overcome this terrible tragedy and find solace in the knowledge that you savored your moments with Hannah.

MaryKate said...

Ah Rach - I'm beyond words about this. I've been crying all morning since I heard. My heart hurts desperately for you and your family.

I'm so grateful that you have a strong and loving family to hold you all up as best they can.

I've mobilized our prayer chain here in DC. Know that there are many, many praying for you here and that even the Bellas love you and will keep praying for God to wrap his comforting arms around you.

Blessed Be, sweet girl.

Love, love.
MK

Anonymous said...

Oh Rach,

I can't believe any of this. We are praying for you. Hannah is the most beautiful angel in heaven this morning and she is lighting the heavens with her lovely smile.

God bless you.

Love,
Rebekah

Adam's Mom said...

We are hurting right along with you sweetie! May God bless you and your family and keep you close! I know your Papa is with her! Love you!

Leslie said...

There are no words...Please know that your family is in our prayers

Leslie

jesst said...

Rachael,

I am soooo very sorry. I wish there was something I could do or say to ease your pain. I know there is nothing. I'm sitting here crying at my desk and I barely know you. Yet, I share your pain right now.

Please know that Marc, Sydney and I are thinking of you, your family and your sweet angel.

Know that there has been a flood of tears and prayers sent on your behalf.

Jess T

Ruhiyyih Rose said...

OH my sweet Jesus I am shaking. Just shaking.

My blog got a lot of hits today from people that where referred from your blog so I had to come over here to see what this was all about.

I could have never imagined, ever. EVER. I cannot believe this. I have experienced this before, in the same manner too, but it was a friend and not a daughter.

Words cannot begin to express my sympathies, Rach. I have never even met you before and I feel as though I have come to know you through what you share about your life on this precious site.

Rach this is so tough. It is ok to hurt to the deepest. We are all giving you a huge cyber hug right now. Please let us know how we can better support you through this difficult time! You are LOVED!

allie said...

Rach, I think I may be cried out for a moment. I think you may have left a comment on a news site because of the name. If you did, will you go back and read my comment that incidentally follows yours? If you left the comment, you may need mine. If I'm mixed up then just know that I'm here for you and your family in every way.

rachd said...

I'm not sure what news site it is, Allie, so it wasn't me. But thank you just the same.

Chels said...

I am on a message board with Jess, so I do not know you and your family, but my thoughts and prayers are with you all. I am at work, in tears over your story and your loss. This must be the hardest thing anyone ever has to go through....I pray you will find the strength to bear this - and that you know that Hannah will be an angel in heaven watching over you always.

Chelsea

Anonymous said...

I can't even imagine the pain you're feeling. I'm praying that you and your family have peace. What a beautiful girl.

Bonita said...

Rach dear, you and Brien are in our prayers. Ruhiyyih just called me with the news (I've had the computer off), and I'm so, so very sorry. Should you post information about Hannah's funeral, she said she will come, as a way of showing our support and love. This is beyond words, so very, very sad.

Anonymous said...

I am soooo sorry for what has happened. I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through.

You and your family are in our prayers.

Virginia w/Lucy and Evan

Dani said...

I'm so deeply sorry for this huge loss. I have cried many tears for your family. Im just so sorry.

Anonymous said...

Rach~

I just can't seem to stop the tears. I will forever remember Pink Lilies and Hannah.

I so wish there were words to help even the tiniest bit, but I know there aren't. My family and I have been praying for Hannah and for your whole family.

I believe right along with everyone else that she is with your dad, and they are watching over you, Lily, and your family.

My heart so aches for you guys, and If there is anything you need, please let us know. We are all here for you even if it's just to scream, yell, cry, or even just be silent. Hannah has touched a part of me from the moment I saw her first pic.

Alyssa said to me this morning. "Don't be so sad mommy...Hannah is a beautiful Angel with Fancy wings and a pretty dress." (Alyssa loves to look at all the pics with me online, she also said that Hannah is a beautiful dancer). I will hold on to that and I know this is true.

Melissa (Misalisa)

Allison said...

I am so sorry for your loss Rachael... I cannot put it into words... I will continue to pray for your sweet beautiful angel and for your family. I am so so sorry.

Sara said...

I am so sorry. I read about your unimaginable loss on Jess's blog and my heart just broke. You and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers, I am so sorry.

jude said...

My heart is in peices right now and amonst the tears I can not even imagine what hurt you are all going through. My prayers are with you and I hope you can have a little peace knowing that you had a wonderful fun filled journey with Hannah and she is now having that journey with your papa.
Once again we all cry with you and the angels on your tragic loss.
I am so sorry!
Hugs
Jude

Playground Monitor said...

Rach,

I am so, so saddened to read of Hannah's death. I've cried and cried because I can only imagine the anguish you are feeling. Hang on to knowing she's with her Papa and that heaven is a little brighter today with its newest angel.

I'm sending your family's name to a prayer group. Know that you're all surrounded by loving thoughts.

Marilyn

Mom to Toes said...

Your post today is beautiful.

I wish I could take your pain away, even for a moment.

leila said...

rach, this is impossible for me to believe. i am crying for your beautiful cheeky monkey, your darling, sparkling girl, and for lily and for you and brien ... this is incredibly painful for me---how can i believe this?

it's too much. seattle and i are raining for you all.

rachel, i am so upset, i'm just so sorry. i'm crying my head off and i don't even know what to say. i wish i could be with you and hug you to pieces.

i have fallen in love with your family over this year, and hannah was just a star, every time, her creativity, curiousity, beauty and intelligence.

she is with the angels in heaven, but my heart is broken for you.

please feel my heart's yearning to offer solace. my and my family's prayers are with you.

all my love, leila

Jen said...

what a beautiful post, Rach ~ I cannot fathom the pain, but I wish there was something I could do to ease it for you. We are praying and you and your family are in our thoughts constantly.

Aimee said...

Rachael,

I typing through tears. Hannah and your family have touched me in a way that I haven't been touched in my whole life. I just wanted to let you know that I am here for you and your family. I have prayed a ton and am having all my friends and family pray for you all as well. Hannah is a beautiful angel and she will be greatly missed. I did a tribute to Hannah today on my blog, if you want to read it.

Love you all,
Aimee aka Angelhunter

Kristi Ann said...

Rach-I cant even express the feelings I have at your loss. I could not sleep, or do much of anything.

She was indeed a beautiful light. I am SOOO blessed that I had a chance to get a tiny glimpse of the angel she was.

You are amazing in strength, and I pray that God continues to hold you close. I know as well as you that your dad is doing exactly as you said. Holding her close and dancing.

Please know that I am thinking of you and your entire family. I just wish I could DO something.

PLEASE let us know what we can do.....can I start a fund in her name?

Leah T. (Perk at J05) said...

Rach -

I'm so absolutely devestated by your loss. I cannot begin to imagine the pain you and your family are feeling. Hannah is such a beautiful, beautiful little girl and I know your Papa is holding her in his arms and they're dancing together.

Please know that you and your entire family are in my prayers. I'm so sorry.

Kimberly Kaye Terry said...

Rach, I am so sorry God, I hurt for you. Nothing I can say will make it better. I have my angel baby, Imani and her twin Amara in heaven. It isn't the same for every woman, so even though I have angels in heaven, this is your pain. But please know I am now praying for you. If you ever want to talk about it, even if you want to curse and vent or just be silent, please contact me. Sometimes talking to someone, not close to family, is somehow easier.

God bless you and your family, sweetheart.

Kim

Sabrina said...

I can't imagine the pain you are going through. I am so sorry. Hugs.

karey said...

Rach- I don't know what to do being so far away from you - our family- at a time like this.. I know that is hard for you also... being away from here. But I wanted to do something until I could see you guys so ... I know that the Duck Pond was a special place to you and reading your blog from then -Hannah looked as though she enjoyed it so when you were there... it is a very special place. it is a place not only that you and Brien share as the very beginning of your new life together but so did Dean and I and I have so many memories there also. I am glad you have that special memory and so many more of Hannah. I went there at lunch time today and placed some flowers in the water in memory of Hannah... i hope you can find some sort of comfort in it and knowing that we are all thinking of you. I will email the pictures to you.

child_of_africa said...

there is no way that i can fathom what you must be going through at this time. i have said prayers for you and dear angel Hannah. as i have no words of my own, i offer the words of 'Abdu'l-Baha in case they may be of some comfort...

"O thou beloved maidservant of God, although the loss of a [child] is indeed heart-breaking and beyond the limits of human endurance, yet one who knoweth and understandeth is assured that the [child] hath not been lost but, rather, hath stepped from this world into another, and she will find [her] in the divine realm. That reunion shall be for eternity, while in this world separation is inevitable and bringeth with it a burning grief.

Praise be unto God that thou hast faith, art turning thy face toward the everlasting Kingdom and believest in the existence of a heavenly world. Therefore be thou not disconsolate, do not languish, do not sigh, neither wail nor weep; for agitation and mourning deeply affect [her] soul in the divine realm.

That beloved child addresseth thee from the hidden world: 'O thou kind Mother, thank divine Providence that I have been freed from a small and gloomy cage and, like the birds of the meadows, have soared to the divine world -- a world which is spacious, illumined, and ever gay and jubilant. Therefore, lament not, O Mother, and be not grieved; I am not of the lost, nor have I been obliterated and destroyed. I have shaken off the mortal form and have raised my banner in this spiritual world. Following this separation is everlasting companionship. Thou shalt find me in the heaven of the Lord, immersed in an ocean of light.'

(Abdu'l-Baha, Selections from the Writings of Abdu'l-Baha, p. 201)

StephenElliot said...

My friend Ruhiyyih linked to your blog. I've never met you, but I am so moved by your story, and I grieve your loss.

I don't know the words to say, but I can't help but think that sometimes God can use someone's death more profoundly than their life.

...already I'm out of words. So sorry.

ev said...

Ah, Rach, dammit honey, I am sooo sorry. I can't even begin to put it into words.

I got Bella Michelle's email this morning and had to wait to read what happened until I came home from work- I knew I wouldn't be able to concentrate if I had.

Know that all of us have you, Brian and Lily and Hannah in our prayers.

People can complain about the bad things on the internet, but look at all the outpouring of love and friendship and prayers that it also brings. It is times like this that make me happy to be part of the human race.

Love and hugs
ev

Anonymous said...

Rach,

I don't know you personally, but I do know Judy. I am in the same organization. I can only imagine the pain you are feeling right now. I can just tell you that I am praying for you and your family right now. I pray that the Lord gives all of you peace to do everything you have to do right now. Stay strong and look to the Lord. Hannah is celebrating with him so just try to use that as comfort.

Missy Graham (Christiansburg)

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry about your dear daughter. It's devastating beyond our comprehension.

Jen

Anonymous said...

Rachael,

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful little girl. I can't begin to imagine how your heart must hurt. Your family will continue to be in my prayers.

Kristen (bristowschool J05)

Leanne said...

My thoughts are with you and your family. There aren't words to convey my sympathies...I am so very sorry for your loss. Today, I hugged my girls a little tighter and said a prayer for Hannah.

Annie said...

Oh Rach, my heart is breaking right now! There are no words to express how deeply sorry I am! I have been crying and crying and I want so much to be able to help you all in some way. Please know I am on my knees praying for you! I know Hannah is so precious to the Lord and He knows how precious she is to you. God sees and knows your hurt and I pray He will pour out fountains of grace and comfort on all of you! I am praying, praying, praying! Is it all right if I let my church know as well so they all can be praying for you?

All my love and prayers,
Annie

Aunt Robbie said...

My sweet Rachael, Brien, and Lily,

Erin and I were trying to tell Catherine about Hannah last evening. She remembered so clearly the family reunion, playing with Hannah and Emma in their matching capes and having their picture taken on the stairs. She then pulled out her scrapbook and found Hannah Banana's photo from when we all went to the zoo together for my parents' 60th wedding anniversary. She was trying to understand where Hannah was. She asked if Hannah was at the hospital and we said that part of her was at the hospital but the part that made Hannah so special, and smart, and precious to her whole family was not at the hospital.

I then told her the story of your wedding when you were so upset because your Papa wouldn't be there and how the door mysteriously blew open in the middle of the ceremony and then slammed shut and how you interrupted everything when you smiled and said "Papa's is here!"

And then I told Catie that Hannah finally got to meet her grandfather for the very first time and that he was loving on her just like he loved you and Jess. He was always such a sucker for his girls and now he is being worked over by Hannah. I can hear him belly laughing as I write this.

Your family has been added to the prayer list at First Presbyterian Church in Lebanon Tennessee and Erin and I are packing and loading the van to be on our way ASAP and will see you tomorrow.

There are no adequate words of comfort for you nor any comprehension of why this tragedy has happened to such a wonderful loving set of parents. We may never ever know the reason. I so admire your decision to let Hannah live on through the donation of her organs. Your courage is unmatched and there is a special crown in heaven for you and Brien for your selfless generosity to other parents who were, perhaps grieving, without hope, for their own angels.

Know that the entire family loves you very much.

Aunt Robbie, Emily, Catherine, Maxwell, Chas and Erin

Anonymous said...

Rach-
I don't even know what to say. I wish there was more I could do. I know you are hurting so deeply, and my heart is broken for you and with you. Please keep my numbers, and if there is EVER anything I can do don't hesitate to call.
With love,
Rachel

Anonymous said...

I have come upon your tragic story through a message board I frequent. I just wanted to let you know that my heart goes out to you and your family.

Your beautiful, precious, Hannah is in my prayers along with you and your family.

I can only imagine the hurt you feel, but felt compelled to let you know that I was one more life your beautiful angel has touched.

May God bless you and your family in your time of need.

Mara Noelle said...

Dear Rachael, a parents' worst nightmare. I am so, so, so very sorry. Ever since Liam was born, I've wondered about this - my ultimate fear. You and your family are in my prayers. I am so, so sorry. It feels so inadequate to say that.

Adventures In Babywearing said...

I don't know what to say. I am so sorry. This post was beautiful. Your last day with her... I pray peace and comfort over your hearts. I will be praying for you all day.

Stephanie

Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog for quite some time now.

I am so sorry for your loss. Please know you & your family is in my prayers.

Katie

Jennifer said...

I'm here from Erin Toes' blog. As a mother of four girls, I cannot imagine how horrible your pain and grief must be. I know that you have the comfort of knowing that she is with the angels, but I'm sure that it's hard to be comforted now. I'm so sorry...how terrible. I will pray for comfort for your family (((HUGS)))

pipsylou said...

Oh, Rach. I get up and can think of your family and nothing else. I have been friends with Jess for 3 years and we were looking forward to getting together soon (I'm in KC too).

I have been reading your blog and am sorry I haven't commented. Hannah's is a beautiful soul. I wanted to cry when I heard you donated her organs to some very, very sick children. That is so like you to do - that is so like Hannah to do...shining light where before there was only darkness.

Hold on.

When you think you can't go on, we'll be here to lift you back up.

pipsylou said...

p.s. as much as you are going to look back on EVERY interaction between you and hannah in the last few days and weeks, I just want you to know that you are the kind of mother I want to be. And I know alot of mothers.

Gmama said...

I read your story on Kati's blog and want you to know that as a mother of two young boys I pray for you because I can't imagine the memories and thoughts pouring through your heart and mind right now. Please know that people everywhere are praying for you and your sweet sweet family.

Anonymous said...

May God give you and your family the strenght you all need. You little angel Hannah is your papa now. I am praying for all of you.

Beth said...

I have never met you but your daughter and your story have affected me deeply. I am so deeply sorry. I wish I could take just an ounce of your pain for you, for even just a moment. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Beth

Vivi Anna said...

Rachael, all the Bellas are praying for you darling.

You need anything you only have to ask.

We are always here for you.

I wish I could hug you and take your pain.

Vivi

Monica Burns said...

Rach,

Oh my dear sweet girl. I can't stop crying for you and pain you're experiencing. I'm so glad that Hannah had such a wonderful, beautiful day with you.

Know that we love you and that our hearts are with you now and always.

Mon

Jennifer & Jason Barnett said...

Rachael~

Jason and I want you and your family to know that your in our thoughts and prayers. We can't even begin to know how you feel right now. Wish we could be close to be there for you.

Jason, Jennifer, Wyatt & Lilly Barnett

Drew's Mom said...

You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.

Anonymous said...

Hannah is such a beautiful little girl! I never met her, but I can feel her spirit through your posts and pictures. I can't begin to imagine your pain and I am so sorry this has happened. I am praying for you and your family!

Amy (saphireice)

Kristi(gavoweymom @ july05) said...

Rach,
What a beautiful tribute to Hannah. I can't imagine a pain so great. My heart aches for you. I wish I could do something to ease your hurt. I pray you will somehow get through this. You and your entire family will get through this. I am sure Hannah is doing her fairy dance for Papa tonight and he is beaming with pride, thankful for the opportunity to share in her light and joy.
My love and prayers are with you all,
Kristi(gavoweymom @ July05)

Katie said...

Rach- I wanted to offer my condolences as well. Your words so clearly show the love you have for your girls and I can't imagine what you must be feeling. I am so sorry you are going through this- it isn't fair. There are no words. My thoughts will stay with your family.

weasel2000 said...

Rachel, Brien and Lily,

You all are in my prayers. I am so very very sorry for your loss.

I remember just two weeks ago, spending the day with you all, my heart aches at your loss.

If there is anything I can do, please, let me know.

Lawrence

Anonymous said...

You don't know me. Since I have found out about your precious daughter I can't get her out of my head. I have told all my friends and family about the tragedy and we are all praying and thinking of you all.
I am so sorry this has happened to you.
Jennifer from J05

gale kennon said...

Scarlett called to tell me of the loss of your precious Hannah.
I know that somehow you will find comfort in knowing that your "Papa" has her and her new angel wings in his care. I greive for your loss and will hold you amd Brien and Lily in my prayers daily.
love
Gale

Paul said...

I have been trying since Thursday to write some words of solace, but I can't. Words have ceased to have meaning. They are aggregations of glyphs or bursts of sound pressure waves that trigger an electrochemical reaction that cause synapses to fire. Right now, that's all words are to me, because I cannot comprehend the terrible news they convey. Meaning and understanding have taken a holiday right now rather than grapple with the crushing sadness that has descended. Even the sky is crying, here in England.

I wish I could take away the hurt. I cherish the outpouring of love that has enveloped and is cocooning my "family."

Maybe one day, all of us affected by this will attain the understanding painfully absent right now.

<Hannah> But not the Hippopotamus! </Hannah>

Portia Da Costa said...

There's nothing I can say to make things any better for you... I wish there was.

Thinking of you...

Wendy

Leah said...

Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this very difficult time. My daughter and I have been reading your blog for about a year and through your words we feel we have become to know you and your family. You are a wonderful mother.
Love and Prayers from Visalia, Ca
~ Leah and Family

Goofball said...

I wish I could write a very comforting post...but I can't. I don't have any words. I am so moved and saddened by what has happened in your family.

I hope you are realise that lots of people are thinking of you and praying for you and for Hannah.

I hope that all the precious memories from your little angel can help soften the pain a bit.

Purple Girl said...

As I look at the beautiful Dancing Queen I can't stop crying I can;t beleive that she is gone. I can't believe that we are not going to get to see her twirling thought our lives with her smiling ray of sunshine. I Miss Her.

nell @ casualfridayeveryday said...

From one mommy to another I cry tears for you and your loss. Your day begun like any other day that any of us moms have and ended so tragic. I'm so deeply sorry.

Sharon said...

I am so very sorry for your loss, and all the sorrow your family is experiencing right now.

My prayers are with you all.

Brandi said...

There are no words to express my feelings for you and your family. Hannah is a little jewel that will always be deep in our hearts. Cascade Hills Church in Columbus GA will be praying for your family, as well as myself and my husband in Iraq. You have touched our lives more than you will ever know. God bless your precious family!

Brandi (Brandi_James)

Mommy said...

I am so sorry for your loss. How wonderful that she had such a nice day. How unspeakably tragic that it was her last.

Lundie said...

I know there is nothing I can say. I just wanted to let you know I will be praying for you and your family.

sis said...

i am praying for your family, for you, for your darling lily.....
you don't know me, but we are mothers together and for that i ache for you!

melody said...

Prayers for you, for your family, and especially for darling Lily.

May you feel God's arms around you.

Sanni said...

We are so sorry to hear of the sudden loss of your sweet angel. It´s heartbreaking...
We are keeping you and your family in our thoughts and prayers, sending our heartfelt sympathy.

Sanni from Germany

kim said...

My heart aches for you. May God bless you and your family and keep you in this time of sorrow.

Revka said...

I had never been by your blog before today - didn't even know about it, but Melody of Slurping Life left a link in her Loving on Parker post, and I followed. My heart aches for you and your family, and I pray for God to wrap you in His arms, holding you as you grieve. I will be praying for you and your family in the days ahead. God bless you!

TaunaLen said...

I came here with directions from Meldoy at Slurping Life. I have a daughter in heaven. Her name is Amber, and we lost her as a 4 month old baby almost 20 years ago. She would have turned 20 last Friday, with her twin sister, Sarah. My heart breaks for you and your family. You never forget, but the pain does lessen. Happiness and joy don't leave forever. I am praying. Remember that God will never relax His hold on you. (Hebrews 13:5 Amplified Bible.)

~TaunaLen

Jan said...

Iam so sorry. I am praying you through this. Much love...

thordora said...

I don't even know you, and yet my heart breaks into a billion tiny pieces right here as I imagine my house quieted by the loss of my oldest.

Please accept my sympathies. No mother should have to outlive her daughter.

shoeaddict said...

I've forgotten how I found you. Please know that I've prayed for you. I have no words to say except I'm praying. I'm so sorry.
Your angel is beautiful.

Erin said...

Dear Rachel-

This is Mary's oldest daughter, Erin. I am so sorry for your loss. I had the blessing of meeting Hannah once at Sara Frey's wedding on the dance floor. Let me tell you...Ill never forget Hannah or her fancy foot work. She was truly a special girl and I am beyond thankful that I had the opportunity to dance with her.
You all are in my mom and sister's thoughts and prayers.

Love,
Erin

Terri@SteelMagnolia said...

I am in tears....

Slackermommy has a post on Hannah..
I came from her site.

Nicki Mann said...

I read about HAnnah on Melody's blog Slurping Life. I am so, so, so sorry for your loss! What a beautiful little girl!

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Last week I lost my brother at age 30. I know this can not compare to losing a child but I have had to watch my mother and father struggle like I have never seen before. No one should ever have to say good bye to their child. There is something so unnatural about that. I watched my daddy cry for hours [I have never seen him cry before]. You seem to have so many people that love and care about you and your family and that is beautiful. Thinking about your loss I came across a group that might help, on MomJunction.com, http://www.momjunction.com/members/groupabout.aspx?g=12256, Its a group for mothers that have lost their children. I hope that your find peace in knowing that she is in a better place. God Bless You!

RockinMom said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

slouching mom said...

I am so terribly, terribly sorry. I'm sending you strength, courage, and yes, hope, so you never lose it.

I know you don't know me. But there's a stranger sitting at her computer with tears running down her face.

Erin said...

I am just now making it to this post and reading it. What a beautiful rememberance of Hannah. I am praying for peace and God's grace to get you through these times.

Joanne said...

Rachel & Brian-
I have never been on ANYONE'S Blog before, and I don't know what led me to yours this evening, but I know what kept me here... what an amazing writer you are, Rachel. Your family is endearing, even to a stranger like me. Your children are absolutely precious, and I don't mean semi-precious. I felt like part of your family so I couldn't believe what I was reading when I got to July 20th. Rachel, Brian, and Lily- I pray for God to give you strength through this unimaginable horror and that the memory of Hannah will brighten your darkest hours. Take comfort knowing that, around the globe, thousands of us are pouring love into your broken hearts and lighting candles for Heaven's new kid on the block- your beautiful Hannah. RIP SWEET CHILD

Betts4 said...

Rachel,
after you supporting me for so many months, and me reading about how wonderful stories of Lily, I finally got the courage to read about how Hannah died.
I am sorry for the loss of a beautiful daughter and your bravery in this post is incredible.
My heart mourns for Hannah and you. I know you are healing, and have come along that road very far, but my thoughts are with you on the path your family must walk.

Anonymous said...

OH MY GOSH, i am sooo sorry i sorta hav a story like that my friend hanna dendy was on a jet ski and got knocked out. ; ( I dont really remember the whole story.