You know, it's rarely a good sign when someone starts with that phrase. But, it's true, I have been thinking--thinking hard, actually. Jessie's recent post about Ella and Jesus really struck me. How DO we learn about Christ? Jessie and I learned at Sunday School and I don't remember attending before the age of six or so, so did I know about Jesus? Did I know about God? I'm sure we knew a little something because we had a Christmas story book and Jessie always wanted to be the Virgin Mary when she was wrapped up in her towel after her bath. But, how do you know what it means? When do you figure out what it's all about? I still don't know, I still don't completely understand. Can we fully understand? Am I even able to articulate what is in my heart and head?
Some things I do know:
1. God truly truly loves us. I know this because he sent His Son to save us. Losing a child hurts. It is a pain that is indescrible. He set Himself up for excruciating pain for us. I don't think I truly understood what a sacrifice this was until I lost Hannah. I mean, I knew, but I couldn't really comprehend the depth of it.
2. I haven't even scratched the surface of my understanding of the Catholic faith. I had a long chat with a good friend this afternoon. He is so strong in his faith and helped clarify a number of things for me.
3. Each person's religious journey is their own. It is none of my business where anyone else is on their path to God. Christ said, "Judge not lest ye be judged" and there is much wisdom in that.
4. I want to be a follower of Christ, not just an admirer.
5. There is something to be said for continuing on your journey of faith with a group of like-minded people. Yes, you need to maintain your own identity, but you can learn more from one another than you can learn on your own.
6. You have to approach your religious journey intentionally and with purpose. You have to set aside the time because otherwise, life just gets in the way.
7. My faith in God is just as solid as it has ever been. God has a purpose for Hannah, and for me. I need to live my life fully to try to live up to whatever that purpose is.
I'm just not sure how it all comes together for me. :sigh: I'm off to explore this. We've done Protestant churches and now, I think it may be time to check out some Catholic churches. I teach in a Catholic school, Brien and Nana are Catholic, and Jessie's checking into it. There is SO much I really don't know about the faith and I confess, I'm intrigued--I want to understand, I want to know more. Most of what I know I've gleaned from attending Mass with B and friends, and from school. I'm not saying I'll convert, but I need to figure out what it is I need to know in order to move forward in this journey. We will be attending Mass this Sunday. I'll let you know how it goes.
1. Nice long chats with friends. Thanks, Will! :o)
2. Thursday Night College Football.
3. Whatever Night dinners.
5. Burt's Bees lip balm. It is most definitely that time of year. :oP
Well, a grammar quiz looms large on my horizon--as in, I need to create the darn thing. Oy. Tomorrow's Friday and then the weekend! Hooray! Happy weekend, everyone! :o)