I'm sitting here exhausted. I've got a blistering headache and it's been one heck of a day. As I look around my kitchen and living room, I'm disheartened. How does the house get away from me like it does? I know we weren't home last night, I know I've got a child and two furry children and a husband. Heck, I'm just as guilty half the time. I get frustrated because I often feel I'm the only one who cares about keeping the house straight and clean. I often feel Brien and Lily just look beyond the clutter and dirt and don't see it.
I confess, I have a certain tolerance for clutter and mess, but when that tolerance is hit, I want things back to "normal" and clean and clutter-free RIGHT NOW! However, "right now" typically involves only me.
Most afternoons I stay an extra hour at work tutoring or allowing the children to make up missed tests and quizzes. I race to Lil's school, pick her up, come home, do my daily chore (laundry today), and begin cooking. Tonight we're having tuna casserole so I have a moment to sit and type while it bakes and Lil and Brien take the pooches for their evening constitutional. That's another thing, it's getting dark so early now (and daylight saving's time isn't even over yet), the dogs need to go out before dinner, so I've been missing my evening walk. I stay home to cook while B and Lil take the dogs out. :sigh:
By the time we get finished with dinner and I get Lil bathed and bedded, I'm wiped out. I have no interest in cleaning up piles and picking up. I just want to sit on my duff and do NOTHING. Usually I will journal and then grade papers instead of doing nothing, but I'm honestly ready to be DONE by that point.
I had no idea I was going to turn this into a gripe-y post, I'm sorry. :o(
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Well, Lil and I made it to her flu shot appointment (only 15 minutes late :eye roll:--I DID however call ahead to let them know I was running late) this afternoon. She knew she had a doctor's appointment so she was understandably anxious. I had told her she needed to get some special medicine to keep her from getting flu, but I didn't mention how the medicine was to be distributed--I didn't want her agonizing all night and all day like I would have done. When we were called back, I let her know she was going to have to get a shot. Needless to say she hit panic mode at that point. The nurse was very sweet and looked at me and said, "She can have the flu mist." Really?!? HOORAY!
"Hey, Lil, do you want to get your medicine in a shot, or in something in your nose?"
"In my nose? No shot? I fink I want de nose stuff." And she did.
She did a beautiful job. The nurse told her she was to sniff on the count of three and Lily did it, both times! She didn't cry or complain, she just took her medicine like a big girl. Needless to say, I too was quite relieved she got to skip the needle. I was simply dreading doing that to her. I know my arm hurt for a good three days after my shot, I could only imagine how Lil's would feel...
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Today's Sparklies:
1. Making it from school to Lil's school to the doctor to Lil's school back to work in a little over an hour's time. Whew!
2. Scottie for covering for me for that bit of overlap in time. :o)
3. The scent of my candles burning. Ahhhhhh.
4. The thought of a LONG night's sleep tonight.
5. Tutoring after school. The kiddos are always so joyful when getting a bit of one-on-one time with the teacher. That, and I think maybe they like the Dum Dums and Starbursts I pull out. ;o)
No milestones.
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With any luck I'll be feeling less grumpy tomorrow and I'll have a sunny post once again. I hate feeling like this. :o(
15 comments:
No need to apologize, sweetie. I honestly think that American women have too much to do day after day.
Hang in there.
Mom
I'm right there with you on all fronts. Teaching all day is tiring, and pretty much every teacher I know always thinks they should be giving just a little more than what they are (whether it's at home or at school), even when they are clearly already going above and beyond!
Be kind to yourself! :P
I don't post too often, but I have to say you're mom is absolutely right- you have no reason/no need to apologize!!! You're not being grumpy. :) Life is life, teaching is rewarding but hard. Being a working mom is a challenge and hard too... Then throw in being pregnant.
It helped me tonight to check in on you and find out I'm not the only one feeling this way. I'm super stressed with school and going to grad school and all my other stuff...
Don't feel bad, thanks for sharing with all of us. You help more than you know! Hope tomorrow is a wonderful one for you!
Hugs.
You are NEVER going to look back at any part of your life and wish your house had been neater! Just look past the clutter at all the love in your house.
No apologies. I have to tell you that I get frustrated. Our home is a lived in home. It isn't disgusting by any stretch, but it can be cluttered. I swear that as much as I tackle that pile at the end of my table, it is just destined to be there. It develops on its own.
Mark knows that I've said before that M-W we live a "dump and run" existence. Having a gap in time before going to work has helped, in that I'm able to get beds made, the floor swept and miscellaneous things picked up from the living room floor.
It seems as if there is a continual heap in the kitchen sink no matter how hard I try. I refuse REFUSE to use paper plates (as we've never used them except for parties) so that is a mess that we deal with, too.
T & W are the days that K- and Hubs get home later, but my mother-in-law is kind enough to not only feed K-, but also to bathe her. That gives Hubs and I time to eat a quick supper, then jump on the 45 minutes of homework that we have do to with K-. When homework is done, it is literally time for bed. No fun. :(
Thursday is my cleaning day. (Since I work M-W.) I strip beds in the AM, grab up all the towels and launder a bunch of clothes. The bathroom gets scrubbed. I wrestle something up for dinner. I just don't stop. Friday is my slosh day for duties undone from Thursday.
Have I mentioned that I'm weaning myself from my apparent caffeine addiction? I had to cave yesterday, since a front was coming through, I was up-to-my-eyeballs busy at work so I ran with the Excedrin Migraine. Oh, the hummy head is not a good thing. I think that there are :mmm, hmm: other issues that are contributing to that. Rrrrr.
So. What my overly wordy response is saying -- DON'T SWEAT IT! Most of us have that embarrassing pile on the end of the table, the stack o' books on the living room table . . . As long as your house smells good, you can get away with just about anything, right? ;)
It's OK - I totally feel you girl!
I am so glad to see that its not just my household. I'm right with you, my husband and boys don't seem to notice that the laundry is overflowing and the counter is a catch-all and OMG have you seen that dust ball under the sofa? Nope these are my stresses in life I guess. I swear if I bring it up to any of them they look at me like I'm crazy. Sometimes you just have to give in and put your feet up, blinders on, and just go with the flow!
I feel your pain. I too had a splitting headache for the whole day yesterday. What is up with this? Maybe it is the weather. And I hate it getting dark so early. At least it is almost the weekend! Hang in there!!
Have you ever considered hiring some help? I couldn't live without my housekeeper. She only comes every other week, but the best thing about her coming is that I get my hiney in gear the night before and put everything in its place. Then the next day, I come home to a sparkly clean house! Bliss! I love that woman...
First and foremost, it is okay to have "grumpy" posts sometimes! Secondly, if you need to let some things go so that you can have some rest time, then let it go. :)
I hope you have a great weekend!
I say it is time to pull out your crockpot and have some stress free/easy meals! :)
And my husband feels your pain... I can overlook the clutter and piles that form as long as the kids are happy and taken care of! And I don't even work... :)
I'm glad she was able to get the mist instead of the shot. Jemma got the mist, but James has the sniffles so he had to get the shot.
I think you are amazing, Rach! I can relate with the irritability that comes with being around messes. I'd much rather have it spic and span... I hope you are feeling better today and that it is a great day so far! Hugs!
I would want de nose stuff too! Good job Lily! I think we all are wiped out and grumpy sometimes. Take a big ol' bubble bath and read a good book.:)
You could always try "Honey, today I grew a kidney for another human being...so do you think you could dust the living room?" *Wink*
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