Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Happy Birthday Baby Dumpling!
It is absolutely amazing that in the space of one year he has gone from this:
Robin is also doing well. She has recovered her ability to read--still working on speed and fluency, but it'll get there--which is also a miracle. Her peripheral vision is still wonky and it seems as if it always will be, which sucks, but is manageable.
Josh goes for a follow-up at UMBC in a week, and will hopefully be released from their NICU babies program (I know there is a formal name for it, Rob, but drat if I can recall it right now). He is perfect and wonderful and a miracle, a true reason for celebration! :o)
I cannot for the life of me remember whom among you left the comment about An Inch of Gray, and for that I'm sorry, but thank you.
I've been to her blog. I've read her posts. I've been there. Oh dear Lord, I've been there. I've experienced all those things. Reading today's post, I realized, that, except for some minor difference, for the most part, it could have been written by me. Today's post was a meltdown at the Wal. For me, it was Ukrop's. Everything, every teeny tiny little thing reminded me of Hannah. I got that post. I understood where she was coming from. I've walked in those shoes.
Reading her blog is very difficult for me since it shunts me back to those first awful Vaseline-filled days, weeks and months. And yet, it also helps me to realize how much I've healed, how far I've come. When I was in those early moments, I never would have believed I could be here. Heck, I couldn't see past the next minute, let alone years (how is that even possible??) down the road.
My heart hurts for Anna and her family. My prayers for them as they are now on this journey with so many of us.
I was talking with Robin today about the loss of a child. I have some thoughts that are still percolating. If I remember, I'll try to post them. It has to do with how the internet community has made the loss of a child less taboo somehow... Like I said, I'm still mulling it all over, though.
For now, my thoughts and prayers for Anna and her sweet family.
1. Ellie is using more and more words. Hooray! She's still screaming and screeching to indicate her wants, needs and frustrations, BUUUUUT, she's moving forward.
2. Random and not really a sparklie, but hey, here it is, why in the world does it only rain in the morning and afternoon right at bus stop time, and no other time during the day?
3. Ellie singing. She sings her ABC's and sings along with Violet in her crib at rest time.
4. Making the most of leftovers from last night for lunch today.
5. INCREDIBLE meat sauce with our spaghetti for dinner. Mm.