I've just been lacking energy and drive. I've gone out and walked/run with Christy, I've done my errands, I've gone on my walks with Beanie, but I'm just not myself. I don't know if I'm on a down yo and missing the Monkey, I don't know if I've been trying to recover from the whirlwind trip to Knoxville and back, I don't know if I'm just struggling to get back in my normal groove.
Whatever it is, I want it to GO AWAY. I want my energy and drive back because, quite frankly, this stinks. :oS
I picked up those calla lilies Monday at TJ's as a bit of a pick-me-up. They worked beautifully until this happened:
I love that Miss Ellie still loves books. I found her here "reading" Tag books the other day. She was kept entertained for close to 30 minutes--and those of you with young toddlers in the house know this is something!
Since this post is already so random, I'll keep going in that vein. I LOVE our neighborhood. I love that Lil has friends close to her age and that I get along with their parents. Saturday morning, in an effort to give B some time to work on the waterlily planter, I took the girls to Busch Gardens. I told Jana I was going to go and she decided to bring Sadie and Sally too.
Ellie is a daredevil and LOVES to ride any ride they'll allow her on. She is able to ride many of them with her big sister (which also thrills her no end), and quite a few of them on her own.
Sometimes it's wonderful to have these little reminders of our Fancy Hannah, and at others, it seems strangely inappropriate, as I feel I should just be enjoying my Ellie and not worrying about being sad for missing her sister.
That's another one of those things about grief that drives me crazy--my children will always have to share their special occasions, moments and milestones with a twinge of my grief, and dammit, it's NOT FAIR!
Ooookay, that came rather out of nowhere...
Lil and I braved the Spring Break crowds at the outlets and found her some new sneakers. She had begun to complain her old ones were pinching her toes a bit. They were a size 9. Her new sneaks are 11 1/2... Yeah, sign me up for Mommy of the Year. Doh!
This morning we left the house at 9:30, and Lil and I didn't get home until almost 3:45. I'm beat! We had church and then religious ed. Then, Christy and I had a small picnic for Lil and Claire and then we were back at church for the Sojourners' tea.
While it was all wonderful fun, I have to say I was quite happy to get home and rest. I have to plan for the rest of the week--Thursday is Beanie Baby's birthday chief among them. :o) (To be quite cliche, where does the time go???) Let's hope the funk of last week is gone gone gone...
1. See above.
2. I saw Angie at the tea this afternoon and she'll be joining us for Bible study this Wednesday. Yay! :o)
3. Brien working so hard on the planter/waterlily holder.
4. I got new hanging baskets. I kept last year's baskets alive all summer--a record!--and plan on doing the same this year. Neither heat nor humidity nor 100 degree temps shall keep me from watering my baskets. :oP
5. We have yet to turn the a/c on and I'm rather impressed since it was close to 90 today. Whew.
Seeing Ellie on the rides Han used to ride and being struck rather breathless.