A Post Where Rachael Whinges and Whines

Disclaimer:  Read at your own risk.  The first part is a bit of nonsense about the girlies and their cuteness.  The rest is me prattling on about nothing in particular.  It's spectacularly boring and self-indulgent.  Feel free to skip over all of it and just enjoy the photos of the cute girls. :o)

I've had these photos sitting on the computer just waiting for me to post them.  They're from dinner last Saturday.

We had supper al fresco (we like to keep it fancy around these parts) and the evening was wonderful.  There was a soft breeze, no humidity and NO bugs.  Sweet!

I typically try to avoid taking photos of the girls with schumtz all over their faces, but well, I just loved how sweet Miss Beanie was looking and couldn't seem to help myself.  The lighting was wonderful and I just had to snap a few quick photos

She's still trying to grasp the idea you don't have to turn your spoon or fork upside down to get the food in your mouth--it makes for a bit of messy eating.

When she gets frustrated with that, she'll switch over to her fingers. ;o)

And, here's my messiest of the Messy Bessies.  Bless her heart, Lil is Messy Marvin and Pigpen all rolled into one.  She is a sweetheart and I adore her, but holy smokes is she one messy eater. 

Typically, the spot around her chair is crumbier and messier than the other three combined.  Doh! 

But, in spite of that, I suppose I still love her. ;o) 

She loooooves eating outside, and in fact, I'm considering it for this evening as well.  It has been cold and wet most of the weekend, but the sun is finally peeking out.  Yay! 

I've been in a bit of a vile mood most of the weekend.  I don't know how the family can stand being around me because I really can't stand being around myself.  :oS  I'm just feeling all sorts of grumpy and out of sorts and I can't quite pin down why.  I just want to run away from home and hide out somewhere all by myself. 

Isn't that awful?  I adore B and the girls.  ADORE them.  And yet, right now, I think I would give my left hind leg to just be with me and no one else.  I want to be responsible only for me.  I don't want to cook or clean or see any messes.  I don't want anyone calling "Mommy" or to smell any litter boxes or medicine any bunnies.  I don't want to see any messes.  I just want to be alone with my books and some chocolate and simply be.

I'm a horrible human, I know.  :oS :sigh: 

You know, we spend all our childhood desperately wishing we were "grown-up" so we could make our own decisions and do our own thing and not clean our rooms and go to bed whenever we want and eat all the junk we desire. 

You don't realize that being a grown-up entails pretty much giving up all traces of irresponsibility.  :sigh again: 

Since what I long to do is so at odds with what must be done, I'll simply suck it up and pull on my big girl panties.  I'm the mama.  I'm the grown-up and I know what my responsibilities are.  But, it doesn't stop me from daydreaming, right?

Maybe Brien needs to send me on a business trip somewhere...;o)
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Sparklies:

1.  LOVE this view when we eat outside:

Everything is sunny and green and lovely.  We can hear the birds chirping and see them flying hither and yon. I'm still trying to figure out where the bluebirds are living.  There's nothing more delightful than having them visit during dinner. :o)
2.  Lily attended Alicia's birthday party yesterday--a paint on pottery party. :o)  It was, without a doubt, the most serene six year old birthday party I have ever attended. :oP  I have promised Lil a half-birthday party (since her bday is so very close to Christmas) and that will fall right at the end of the school year.  She would like to have her party there, and since I believe in keeping the numbers down (one child per each year of age or so), I think it should be doable. :o)
3.  It was First Communion today.  I got all verklempt seeing all the second graders partake of Eucharist for the first time.  Some of them were the oldest children in their families and oh, the joy and pride on their parents' faces (all of them).  It was a happy happy thing. :o)  Lil is looking forward to her First Communion in two years, and goodness, Ella will be making hers next spring!!
4.  Brien dealing with my foul disposition with grace and relatively good humor.  He's a good man.  He's worked on the kitchen and cleaned up the bunnies for me.  What more could I ask for?
5.  It's comfort food night here at Casa de Davis.  Sometimes you just need that, even if the spring produce is coming in...;o)
6.  Lil and I picked up some stunning Million Bells at one of the pop-up McDonald Garden Centers (they pop-up every spring as little satellite sites). I'll have to get some pictures.  I'm so pleased with how lovely the backyard looks.  Too bad the front leaves a lot to be desired...at least the Bitsies are blooming fit to be tied and oh, the Carefree Peaches are starting as well.  I have daylilies and glads out front and they make me happy.  I'll be bringing some of those glads in tomorrow. :o)
7.  Oh yes, I almost forgot!  I'm in Pottermore, finally!  I'm a Hufflepuff (anyone surprised by that?  No, me neither.), as is Jess.  Ella, a Ravenclaw, has made fun of us. ;o)

No milestones.