Tuesday, February 28, 2012
She's growing and changing, my Bitty, but in some respects she's still the same. I was talking with Lissie this afternoon and she was asking about my girl and how school is going. We started talking about what a truly sweet child she is and it made me stop and think for a bit.
My Lenten sacrifice isn't a sacrifice so much as a self-improvement. I've given up yelling. All forms of it--be it at someone or to just shout it's time to come eat. It's terrible. It's destructive. It does nothing but make situations more complicated. It's making me stop and think when I'm angry instead of just reacting. This isn't a bad thing.
I bring this up because so often, Lil seemed to take the brunt of the anger. I fail to remember she's just a little kid. She's only six, for pete's sake! She is going to make mistakes and that is her job. The important thing is she learn from those mistakes. However, I get so wrapped around the axle about keeping the house clean and neat and making sure we're on time and on task and focused that I lose sight of these things and pop off. I'm embarrassed to even be writing this. :oS
But, through this "sacrifice", I'm adjusting, making changes, making better choices with my words and the way in which I interact with my family. Don't get me wrong, I'm not ALWAYS a yeller, but there are moments that are burned in my memory that I'm not proud of. I don't want Lily and Ellie to remember me as the mommy who yelled all the time (I don't, I swear I don't, but when you're a little kid, it must seem that way sometimes). Thus, 40+ days of change. It takes 30 days to change a habit? Well, sign me up!
So, about my Bitty. :o) She loves school. Her reading and writing are really coming along. She reads to me daily and has quite the sight word vocabulary. However, math and science are her favorite subjects by far. She is still easily frustrated by those things she finds challenging and I find myself nudging her along to try her had at problem solving instead of just giving up, or worse, shutting down.
One thing Lil has had to learn this year is that not everyone is going to be your friend and want to play with you--even those children you consider your friend. We've had quite a bit of discussion about this as we deal with a couple of little girls in her class. Bitty met G at the beginning of the year before school started and fell in love. G was going to be her new best friend! Lil came home the first weeks and month of school full of excitement and joy and stories of playing with G. But, as the year has progressed, G has become good friends with C, who for whatever reason doesn't seem to like Lily. Last night at dinner I asked Lil who was fun to play with at school that day. She rattled off a long list of boys' names(!) and said they had fun building things in the sandbox. Excellent! Then, she told me she had wanted to play with G and C but they wouldn't let her. :sigh:
Why? Why must children do this to one another? I don't butt in (there's no point in it as it would accomplish nothing other than being a buttinski parent), but I do gently suggest to Lil that she find other children to play with. We've been having this conversation since the beginning of December, and I think she's finally getting it. She is no longer devastated if G doesn't want to play with her. Instead, she traipses off to find somebody else to play with. This makes me happy. I'm sad she is somewhat ostracized, but happy she's working her way around it.
Boy, being a little kid is tough work!
1. My friend Courtney is going to have her baby any day now! She was due Sunday, but Miss Baby isn't ready to come out just yet. I'm holding out for tomorrow so she can be born on Leap Day. ;o)
2. Even though I'm feeling rather rotten (what is it about a cold that can lay you out flat?), I still managed to get out and get moving this morning. I always feel better when I can get out and exercise for a bit.
3. The ladybugs I've been seeing on our walks.
4. I saw deer tracks going across the path today. AND, Beanie and I saw two white tail deer the other morning.
5. Working in the offudio! Hooray! I'm working on one of those New Years goals!
Sunday, February 26, 2012
It was hot Friday (80+ degrees), so the cool breeze (if that wind can be called that) blowing in through the windows once the storms had passed was lovely.
The peepers were going crazy and I sat in my window filming:
I know my routine will have to change once summer arrives and brings with it its intense heat and humidity. I'm making plans, though. I hope to get up with the girls and get out the door early with Beanie in the stroller and Lil on her bike. I don't know for positive what will happen, but I do know I don't want to lose this momentum and the peace I find taking my walks.
There are definitely times when I don't want to get out and get going, but once I've done so I'm always so happy I did. I feel good and recharged and refreshed. It's amazing what our bodies are capable of doing. :o)
1. Suncatchers with Lil.
2. Italian pot roast for dinner. We've not had that in so long and it is SO delicious!
3. Time to make cards. Yay!
4. "October Sky". I do so love that movie and haven't seen it in a long long while. We're watching it even as I type.
5. Wonderful neighbors. Alicia and Sadie came over to play with Lil and now they're over at Alicia's.
6. We're out of milk and I didn't get to stop on the way home this afternoon, but Bev had to go out to the 'jay and she picked up a gallon for me. I do love my neighborhood. :o)
Thursday, February 23, 2012
I look at my girlie here, and I can say she hasn't changed that much in the past year. Sure, she's grown taller and gained some weight. She's lost a tooth (or five) and learned to read and do math and all sorts of amazing things, but she still looks like Lily Bit here.
(The house has changed significantly from these photos--no more red kitchen and gold living room. No more icky carpet!)
Babies change so quickly the first two or three years. Then, the changes aren't as obvious or evident, they're more subtle and gradual. I miss my babies. I love the roly poly stages, the gumminess, the baldness (when did the child's hair fall out?!?). I miss my snuggly babies (oh, who am I kidding?!? Bitty and El never were much for snuggling. Hannah on the other hand...), but I so enjoy them as they get older.
I love watching words come alive for Lil. She is becoming quite the reader and her math skills are unbelievable. :o) I love that she's old enough and has the manual dexterity to work on crafts and cook. I love her songs and jokes (okay, maybe not the jokes sometimes) and the fact that she is still a kitty most afternoons and evenings.
I love that Ellie is communicating and running! I love her fierce little independent streak (although, it is rather frustrating when she wants to do something herself and I'm in a hurry and so I do it and then she undoes whatever I've done only to redo it herself) and her love and enjoyment of bocks. I love watching her discover and learn about the world around her (the child can now identify most of her colors and a circle, heart, flower, cross, star, triangle, square, "O", "E", and "L"). I love seeing the pleasure she gets from listening to music (she "sings" along and claps in time--she at least seems to have some rhythm (poor Bitty)) and her dancing has to bee seen to be believed.
Children are small and young for such a small period of time. Sometimes I forget this and need the reminder of photos in archives. I need to remember to be more patient and understanding. I need to remember I'm not promised tomorrow and to enjoy today.
1. Holy smokes was our walk this morning unbelievably stunning! I was out in short sleeves and thin yoga-type pants and I was comfortable. The sun, the birds singing, the deer (saw two of 'em!), the ducks, all of it wonderful.
2. Ellie in her pettiskirt. It seems she is following in Lil's footsteps and loving being in skirts. No complaints here.
3. So, we keep plugging through the backlog of "The Big Bang Theory" episodes and I've figured out I'm married to Sheldon. Okay, not quite as bad as Sheldon, but Brien definitely has some Sheldon-esque tendencies. :oP
4. Audiobooks. They make housework so much more enjoyable.
5. Flowers are popping up all over the place! I have Johnny Jump-Ups and daffodils blooming, and all the daylilies seem to be coming out of hibernation and sending up green. Spring is going to be here before we know it!
Looking back at the girls and missing Hannah. I can look back, but I can't compare her to "today", and that really hurts. I often wonder what she would be like, my big fifth grader. Would she be a nice girl or a mean one? Would she be a friend to all or would she constantly have her feelings hurt and stepped on? Would I be going mad with her over her school work and bed room and clothes? Would she be a big help around the house and with her sisters?
I HATE not having answers. I HATE having to try to decide for myself what she would be like and how she would look.
I haven't had a down yo in what seems like forever, and this isn't a down yo so much as just a sad-ish moment. There's so much I'm missing, so much that will never be. Lil has passed so many of Hannah's milestones--teeth and six to name two--and soon will be passing even more. And, before I know it, Ellie will follow. Time passes but Hannah remains the same little five almost six year old girl.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
I thought it was rather odd when I strolled up the driveway and into the garage and I didn't hear a little voice say, "Okay. All done. I get down!" I approached the front of the stroller with a bit of dread and found this. Okay, not too bad, except she didn't respond to me. I pushed up the glasses and found this:
Miss Bean was wound up tighter than a terrier with an espresso. Holy smokes. She was a live wire! Thank goodness a couple of her big girl friends were there to play with her. Whew! We all ate our pancakes (we each had three--the knights were quite impressed with El's skills in throwing down some panpakes) and then there was dessert! Lil almost died with pleasure--ice cream and cookies. Oooooh. :o)
While Ellie played with the big girls, Lil and I sat and chatted with Will and Christy and Claire. I would say a good time was had by all. :o)
Today, though, I'm finding I'm rather hungry. I've never had to fast for Ash Wednesday before. Two years ago I was pregnant and last year I was nursing. This year, no excuses. I've had a cup of coffee and a cereal bar and that's all. Good thing I pigged out last night. "Fat Tuesday" makes a lot more sense to me now. ;o)
It is Ash Wednesday, and it is the start of the Lenten season. I'm still thinking about a Lenten sacrifice. It isn't demanded of us, and I know I want to work on my spirituality and growth, but I'm not sure what to "give up". I want it to be something that is truly a "sacrifice", something that is meaningful. While I would LOVE to give up housework, I don't think that's quite in the spirit of things.
So, I'm praying and pondering and am sure something will come to me before the end of the evening.
1. Have I mentioned how much I LOVE getting out to walk in the mornings?
2. Georgie Porgey LOVES him some sunlight:
3. I took this Sunday night and just got it off my phone:
4. Jessie sent me this photo from New Orleans:
5. I want to get to Ash Wednesday service tonight. We'll see if I can make that happen. I have a wonderful tofu dish planned for this evening (stir fried with rice noodles) to complete our day of fasting and abstinence from meat, and I would love to be able to attend Mass afterward. And, no, that makes no sense whatsoever, written out. It DOES however make sense in my head. :oP
Monday, February 20, 2012
I sent her out as soon as she was finished with breakfast. Beanie and Brien went with her.
George? He couldn't wait to go bounding through the snow! He rolled around in puddles and played with Holly. I couldn't believe it. :shakes head:
B and I have spent the day cleaning and decluttering. He's making major progress in the offudio and I've cleaned bathrooms and the kitchen and done laundry and ironed and vacuumed.
Cinder-Lily cleaned the kitchen floor (her request) and it looks fabulous. She's now working on her bedroom. It's a cleaning and organizing sort of day. Well, all except for Miss Bean who has steadily been undoing all our best efforts...
2. A day off from school so the snow could be enjoyed. Otherwise, given the clear roads, there is no way there would have been a snow day.
3. The snow lasted just long enough to be played in. Now, the daffodils can continue to do their daffodilly thing without being frozen to death.
4. Getting a grip on the house once more.
5. Home an extra day with my family. :o)
I always miss my girl when we have snow. I miss watching her move around from place to place tasting different patches. She so loved the snow. I know she would have had a blast out there with her sisters and the cat.
Sunday, February 19, 2012
I'm chuckling, though, because Mother Nature is once again being funny and we're to get somewhere from 1"-3" of snow this evening. Go figure. ;o) I'm not holding my breath on that amount of snow, but I'll be thrilled if it comes to fruition.
Of course, it would come when we have a holiday, so no snow day for Miss Bit. Oh well. Snow is snow is snow, after all. :o)
Tomorrow is a day off for the family--always a fun time. We were hoping to go to the VLM tomorrow, but I do believe we may be staying home to play in the snow instead. :fingers crossed:
1. Dinner last night with Mom and Dad. We've not done a meal with them in a while and I've missed it.
2. Lunch with them again today. :o) It's so good to eat with them and catch up.
3. B and I only recently discovered "Big Bang Theory" (yes, yes, we'd heard all sorts of fabulous stuff and should have and just never did--DOH!) and have spent the past two days watching season one. Ah, good stuff. :o)
4. Making a couple more wreaths to give away.
5. A snuggly day inside with my family. Sometimes we need those.
Friday, February 17, 2012
this on the board of pins and decided that I must have one.
For those interested, here are my materials:
*3 skeins fun fur (I only used about two but had the third just in case)
*1 spool flower ribbon (as in flowers that are connected into a ribbon)
*1 10"-12" foam wreath form
*1 box pearlized pink straight pins
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend! Anyone have anything fun planned? :o)
Prayers for my neighbor who lost his wife this week. My heart is so heavy and hurting for him right now. They were married over 60 years. :o(